Im not Ok

You break my heart real badly,

I wish not to cry, 

 But i really couldn't control my tears from dropping...

You will never understand how i feel,

 I know,

Friendship is always important to you...

 Today i just miss you so much,

 But i wont disturb you anymore...

I'll give you all the freedom that you wanted...

Bao Bei

 

  BB, I love this name ALOT...

Because it makes me felt like i'm different from others...

I get this name from my boy, " BB" means " 宝贝 " in chinese...  

Honestly...I admit,

I sufficated because of love in the past, 

the more i suffer the more i get mature from it...

He's important to me, like a baby needs their mother...

He resuscitate me...

You might think that i'm insane,

But i can tell you when comes to the L word, everybody is insane...

Because when it's going good,

Everything goes perfectly...

But when it's bad, it's going awfully...

I'm not those who will cry easily,

But because of him, i can barely breathe...

We are so lost in some moments,

But when things cool down, we are sweet couple again...

Now we are holding each other's promise,

And we'll kept our promise...

I don't know how long it will take to be your perfect babe,

but i'll try my best to get the overachieve score... 

I love you too much, 

I'm not willing  to see you leave anymore...

My heart will stop beating when there's no you in my life...

~ Our sweet moment ~

  

♥ Lissy and JueJin ♥

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Hate U

Nothing to say anymore,

I'm done...

You said i'm showing my attitude, Fine ...

My bad then,

Please, you are the one who always show me your attitude ...

I love you, that's why i bear you for this long ... 

But it seems like you just take it for granted, 

Well, You hurt me well...

I'm crying like a baby now,

Bye

-BB-

1篇短文章

1男子醉酒后半夜回家，醉的不醒人事，可是他第2天醒来发现并没有像他想象的那样糟糕，

 房子里干干净净的，桌子上还有个便条：

 昨天晚上你喝醉了，早饭我做好了在厨房，你的衣服也洗干净了，下次不要这样啊 

--- 爱你的老婆。

 他不明白，每次他醉酒后老婆都是大发雷霆，他感觉怪怪的。就把儿子叫来问: “ 我昨天怎么了？” 

儿子回答: “ 没什么啊，你回来后，妈妈1直再骂你，然后你在水龙头上喝了点凉水，然后妈妈就帮你脱衣服 ”。

 男子又问: “ 我说什么了么？”

 “ 你说了很多话，都是乱七八糟的话，听不出来！”

 “ 别的呢？”

 儿子又说：“ 对了，你裤子上吐的很脏，妈妈给你脱裤子的时候你骂了她1句 :

“ 滚开，我是有老婆的人！”

 妈妈就不骂你了....

~文章很虽然很短，但... 这就是能走到永远的爱情 ~

My Precious One

" In The Arms Of D'angel "

Something that belongs to me forever , it's about my precious mom... 

Meaning, I'll always be your baby girl...

I know i hurt you alotzz since i was young and now, acting very immature...

Sorry mom, i promise i'll changed... 

To be honest, you are the bestest thing i had in the whole world...

Mi,

i just wanna tell you that I Love U so much...

- Your Daughter -

Hatred

 Felt fucked up this few day , realized one thing... 

Don't trust anyone... 

There's no forever in this world, especially friendship...
Really wanna learn how to protect myself from getting hurt and betrayed anymore, Sigh... 

  Sorry for bein rude, but i really couldn't trust anyone now...
It's really heart breaking knowing you guys changed alotzz after i left... 
I've done nothing wrong...

Sigh, Gotta said bye bye to this broken friendship d!! 
Bye ~

- End with disappointment -

OMG by David

David Choi
He's my latest new idol now

FuYooo

Loves his voice and his panda so much

P/S

Check all his video at YOU TUBE now

YOU WON'T REGRET!!

 Enjoy ~

 

The Truth

There's always

a little truth behind every

" Just Kidding "

A little knowledge behind every

" I Don't Know "

A little emotion behind every

" I Don't Care "

And a little pain behind every

" It's Okie''
 

By Lissy 

Love And Respect

Hmmm ...

Yea, it's one of my tattoos ...

Meaning 

" Love my family and friends, 

Respect them no matter what happens ... 
And 
Will never leaves one of them behind ''

Lissy

The Days that i've been Waiting

B, im glad that you choose to change for me... Honestly, i've been waiting and waiting... I thought of giving up, but you came back to me with a brand new you...
Im touched with every words that you told me ~~~ " BB, We can make things work, I'm changing for you" ~ "From now on, all the love u need, i'll just give it to u" ~ "I miss u alot, my baby girl " ~~~ B, i can really feel your love now...In fact, I can feel the changing you too... I always wish for the time to stop while im with you, i
just wanna to feel your heartbeat and your warm every second every minute... Past few days was really a unforgetable days to me, 1st time we brought couple shoe, 1st time kiss me in public, 1st time hold my hand no matter where we are, 1st time brought me to your friends, and 1st time you told your friends about me... Im really touched... B, i love you alotzzz... Im scared, scared that you'll turns back to the heartless you again... Im not willing to lose you anymore!!
I choose that 2 pics of us to be my blog's pics because you told me that is yours favorite... B... believe it or not, they are my favorite too ~

B, i'll walk walk walk walk walk till the end of world with you... Till my brown hair turns white and calls you my old man ~

~ Your Silly BB ~

做不成男女朋友，做个特别的朋友

两个可能彼此相爱、喜欢ｄ人，
但是，又不属于友情、爱情、亲情中ｄ任何一种，
彼此不能成为男女朋友，只能做个特别ｄ朋友...
也许是为了朋友之间ｄ义气，不能归属。
也许是为了顾及家人ｄ意见，不能归位。
也许是为了自己ｄ前程，不能承诺。
也许是相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许是相遇太晚，彼此身边已经有了另一个人。
也许是回头太迟，对方已不再等待。
也许彼此在捉摸对方ｄ心，而迟迟无法跨出界线…
不过即使没在一起，
彼此仍能找到塌实ｄ感觉，
仍然会保持不隶属任何一种感情ｄ关系。
但是彼此心底清楚，
对这个人，比朋友还多了一份关心。
因为有了彼此，心里总是被幸福塞满满ｄ…
即使不能彼此名正言顺ｄ牵着手逛街，
还是可以做无所不谈ｄ朋友。
彼此有喜欢ｄ人，口头上会说不吃醋，
心里却会觉得胃疼…
对方遇到困难时，
会尽全力伸出援助之手，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。
对方生病了，
会缴尽脑汁找药方，
恨不得变成护士，陪伴在身旁…
每个人这辈子，
应该有过这幺一个特别ｄ朋友，
很矛盾的行为。
一开始可能不甘心只做朋友ｄ，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。
宁愿这样关心对方ｄ心情，
总好过彼此生活在一起受伤害…
做不成男女朋友，
当个特别ｄ朋友，
有什么不好呢？
很多ｄ感情，
都败在了现实ｄ面前…
友情可以演变成为爱情，
爱情最终进化成为亲情，
彼此就将友情直接进步到亲情…
人生不过百年…
能成为红颜知己，请别刻意离开！
珍惜彼此之间塌实的感觉...
你...　明白我ｄ意思了吗？

～傻傻～

没有你D日子

想起你D时候

~听到一句熟悉的歌词，想起你曾经说要守护我，现在却不在我身边。
~看电影,想起我们1起吃爆米花。
~路过一家曾经和你一起去过的餐厅。
~夜晚一个人面对黑暗。
~拿起电话，按下号码后迟迟不敢拨。
~遇见开心幸福的事情，无人分享。
~鼓足勇气发一条信息给你，第二天醒来，仍然没有你的消息。
~蜷缩在被子里时。
~做梦梦见你，醒来却自己一个人。
~穿高跟鞋脚疼，没有人扶着。
~睡觉前，收不到晚安和我爱你的信息。
~难过的时候，不知道打电话给谁。
~明明不舍得，但必须逼自己忘记过去有关你和我的记忆。
~每天醒来必须忘记昨天的不愉快。
~逛商场时看见美丽的东西，想要买给你时，突然想起你不是 我d了。
~看见恋人牵手过马路，想起你粗粗d手。
~看见一个很像你d人，想起你的背影。
~想念你的时候，你却不知道。

Worries =(

You are back ... But i'm scared, i felt insecure again ... I really don't know why? You said all you want is me, you love me ... But i really couldn't felt abit of them ! I'm scared, scared that you're lying to me again ... I really don't want get myself hurt anymore, i hate those feelings =(
Babe, i really hope you'll understand ... Cuz i'm just too deeply in love with you ...

* End with Loves *

Wake me up

Im seriously so down this few days, wish you were beside me... But it just like too hard to have someone beside me right now, i just need a ear, a shoulder and two arms...
Is that too much?? You never know how much i need you!! All i want from you is to spend more time with me, be more honest with me or even a message from you.... But you started to hate me or bored with me now... You always spent most of the time with your friend, all i beg is come to me more often... Because I felt not fair at all!! Im the one who always comes to you whenever you need me!! But why won't you just spend at lease a lunch or dinner with me?? Is it so hard for u?? I felt insecure, i always asked myself " Im i even 10% important to you?? "
I used smile to hide the tears in front or behind you, I used laugh to hide the sadness...No matter what i do, the pain just not leave me... Actually I just wish you would look in to my eyes and say "Babe,im sorry...I love you...And i'll change..." that will be enough... Sigh, i knew that miracle will never ever happened to me...
Sometimes i was thinking..." How good is if i was died now! How good if i never been born! " so that bad things never happened on me... ( Tears dropping )
I'm tired, my heart is tired... Tired of asking ppl to accompany me...Tired of doing everything...I just wanna lie on my bed and listen to the song that you use to sing me in the past... I bet you can't remember what song is it d ! Is ok... I've already use to your forgetfulness ~ ( Miss you so badly )
Maybe really as what she said... I'm just a flirty, a bitch... I'm not suitable to be with you...( Tears dropping )... But im happy that you always stand up defend me and defend our love... You said babe " I trust you, i do love you... We should forget our past... Keep on loving each other, and wish we could stick together forever, i love you "... Thanks baby ~ Im happy and i really do appreciate it....But nowdays i couldn't see the FOREVER already, is getting blur and blur and blur and blur...( Im scared )
Wish i could just wake up from this kind of nightmares, and remain our happiness...

~ End ~

哭透了

你

是累了，

还是不爱了~

如果

你真的累了，

我会悄悄的离开你 ~

放弃

并不代表我不

爱，

也不代表我认

输了，

是我不懂如何去

爱了~

傻傻　

Beautiful Nightmare

It became more and more obvious now... I'm just a NOBODY at all !! Even though my post is a disaster ... Begging for nothing... Just begging for your LOVE ~ But , Im sharing it with others...
I'm seriously tired on pretending that everything is okay to me , i'm tired and exhausted ...Babe my heart is seriously bleeding while you talk to me with those hurting words, seriously in pain that i couldn't describe about it !!! I was crying and begging you to trust me, but you treated me like im your enemy... I'm trying my best to do everything for you, giving out much i could for you ! I doesn't want much, i just want you to trust me and loving me as your girlfriend... Is it so hard for you ??
Everytime i tries to tell out all my feelings, you layed your temper on me over bout it ... i wonder why couldn't you just sit down and listen ? Baby... yours arms can easily warms me up, do you know about it ?? Yea, maybe i nag too much... Making you getting sick of it d... But do you ever once thought about that you are hurting me so much ?? Yea, you can just dump me easily without doubting about it... Because you are surrounded with those who willing give you loves and support... Me ??? Just a little girl who became your past... Yea, i admit... I cries alot because of you... Yea, i admit... I love you so much that i couldn't tell... I don't want you treat my caring as a joke... I was thinking long time ago, will you TREASURE it ? Is that WORTH ?
I'm stubborn, and i'll admit about this... I felt sad after get hurt... So what ?? This is part of my life...Used to stay with you, used to follow what you said... Used to showing my silly face to you... I just want you to appreciate me .... WONG JJ you are such an idiot !! Gee ~ You just know how to make me cry cry cry like a baby.. Argh !!

LOVE YOU

Sweet time

I recently so lazy to update my blog... Dun know why ?? Maybe too much on my mind?? Gee ~ But i have to post it out no matter what happen, if not im deadmeat d...Done many things recently , went to kl, clubbing, Wendy's bday, Wendy's farewell, arguement...
Just everything !!! Hohohoho ~

Wendy's 1st time

KL trip with my precious one

Fooling around behind ah B ...

His messy room and my purple stuffs

Watched the Iron Man with B

A gif from me for B's bday

Went up hill to have our lovely anniversary dinner, and im wearing this white heels all night long ... Gee ~ Damn tiring ...

My silly dumb dumb face ~

Bla bla bla ..... nothing to describe

Camwhore + ing ...


Steamboat time with my dearest ... At BBQ plaza ~

These are my bloody friend, Wendy and Ah Tat came all the way from Ipoh to Kl just to hang out with me ... So does Xue How... But he's abit different , he came all the way from Singapur... Hoho ~ He's just so sweet ....

That's all ... Because i'm really really really damn lazy to post it out all ... Sorry ya !! I'll continue it soon ~ MuaksSsss ❤

TaTa

Kill me plss

I though you will understand, But you don't...I keep on telling myself, I just have to show a smile to pretend that everything is okay...But i don't know how much longer that i can pretend? I've told myself dozen of times, no matter how sad is it,I'm not allowed to cry... But... the tears, is falling without my permission... You stabbed my heart few times, but im still alive with new and hot loves around me !
I'm so useless, I couldn't found any language, any word, to express my feeling ~ I'm a mess and suffering depression...I noticed... Our love is full of lies, i wonder why you could just simply tell a lie without doubting about it?? You are a killer !!! Killing me with your lies... You told me that im your only one and you love me so much as well, i'm happy but in the other hand i scared too... Scared that was only a lie, just to comfort me... I lost my direction to find back my happiness and my smile like usual... I just wanna cry out loudly, but there's no shoulder around me...
I thought i still can stand for everything around me, but the truth is I'm not that tough as what i aspect... In the end, i stabbed myself real hard ~


~ End with loves around me ~

Silly Me ~

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... It shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fixed it... When i stop fighting with you it means i stopped caring anymore...B hope u'll understand about it...
To me the hardest thing to do is watch the one i love, love someone else...It really does hurts alot... Cuz i've been through it before, i don't know how many tears i've drop cuz of you...All i know is if i love something, i'll let it go... If it comes back to me, its mine forever... If it dosent, then it was never meant to be...
I self destruct every relationship so that i won't get hurt...But in truth i just hurt myself worse in the long run... Im just so ME... Sigh...

B, all i know is...I love you more and more when days passed...

LOVE U

♥ BB ♥

Im just a ordinary girl that NEEDs...

♥ A guy who calls me beautiful instead of hot and sexy, who calls me back when i hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to my heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch me sleep... ♥
♥ Wait for my boy who kisses my forehead, who wants to show me off to the world when im in sweats, who holds my hand in front of his friends, who thinks im just as pretty without makeup on... ♥
♥ One who is constantly reminding me of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have ME... ♥

~ ♥ The one who turns to his friends and says, thats my BABE... ♥ ~

♥ BB ♥

♥ Français BB ♥

♥ Est tout à fait en retard maintenant, mais l'encore im éveillé… peut-être en raison de mon headach qui m'a fait ne pourrait pas tomber endormi du tout….
♥ Parlé au téléphone avec mon bébé en ce moment, promis dormira aujourd'hui tôt mais… ici bébé désolé blogging d'I im…… Je t'aime o… ♥
♥ Tout à fait déprimé maintenant ! ! Puisque trop de subsistance de chose clignotant arrière sur le mon mien, et moi avons juste réalisé im accroissant vers le haut de maintenant… De plus en plus l'effort im ayant maintenant, doit être de plus en plus responsable maintenant… Ne peut être un bébé plus… Défiez quoi que je bidon à rendu plus fort dans mon futur… J'ai promis me et mon bébé que je resterai dur toujours, pas marchent simplement au loin et se cachant loin des problèmes… ♥
♥ Im un trempe tout à fait chaud, amours à l'imbécile autour et fille amicale… Je sais parfois des causes d'I beaucoup de problèmes à tout le monde, expecially mon bébé… Mais je changerai mon caractère dorénavant… Et je le veux dire ! ! ! ♥
♥ Espérez que je serai un meilleur Sassa et une meilleure amie à l'avenir… Aimez-toi mon ~ précieux de bébé ~ TaTa ♥

~ END ~

Asia Barbie Has Been Born ♥

Today im gonna to post about my Genting life... Quite boring but 1 thing i loves about Genting is the wheather, love it sooooooo much ♥♥ ...ooooo ~~ Everything's new to me... New friend, new room, new bed, new life style ... And of course there's more additional stress on me....So f**king down sometimes, cuz felt sooo helpless and felt left out and abandon by everyone...Need hugs ~~ Seriously need hugs ~~ Pretend to be strong infront of people, cuz dun wan let them thought that im a crying baby...Even though i im a crying baby ~ Hees ~That's why I was so reluctant to stay much longer ... Luckily i got someone that really do cares about me, his my best companion i could ever have ... Definitely the most best n sweet companion ever... Can't imagine my life without him... ♥



Im apologizing to my precious one, cuz he was mad at me that time ♥


I love this heel sooo much, saw it at Padini while having my break time... But i didn't brought it, cuz quite expensive though...So I managed to walk away from it, but im not goin to give up on this high heel and im gonna buy it soon enough... Hohohoho ~ ♥

And i also brought myself a cute purple bottle, as u guys knows that im deeply in love with purple colour... I was wondering why is My pal "Wendy" dun like purple colour soo much?? Cute what ~~ Hees ~


If can, vote for it pleasssse !!! Purple rules ~ Hohohoho ~


Took this pic around 2 something in the morning while walking back to hostel, u guys c how steep the road is !!! Man !!! Can u guys imagine how tired i im ?? Thats why i couldn't manage to wake up early in the morning the next day... Lazy ...


C !! How foggy it is ?? This climate had been like that for a couple of days d... Quite chilly ... ~~

♥ While working, sometimes is quite boring and nothing to do much...Since nothing to do v took a wig fool around, hees ~ That is why my new nickname Asia barbie came from ... LOL ~ ♥





♥ LoL ~~ What do u guys think of my "new" hairdo ??? ♥

♥ Finally im having a break now... Im less stressful now... ♥
Went to pasar malam with my pal, played 3G with my baby... At last...my life is more interesting now...Just love it ~ ♥


Guess guess guess ~ Guess which 1 is my pretty feet ~ Hees


♥ Trying to sleep 42 hours now to replace my loss of sleeping hour in Genting.. Hohohoho ~ ♥ TaTa ♥

♥ End ♥

♥ 傻傻滴小小路程 ♥

♥ 突然发现很久没更新自己滴Blog了，发现自己有很多东西想要说~只是不懂要从哪里开始。。唉呀，头痛死了！！想了1整晚。。终于想到了。。。嘻~
这几个月滴日子里，我都是和我认识不久滴Wendy妹1起过。。。1起吃东西，1起街街，1起做工，1起睡觉，1起做坏事，1起说人坏话，1起做弄人。。。不过我们是不会1起冲凉滴。。。嘻嘻~ ♥


♥ 我们还1起敷mask ~~ 2个傻婆仔滴傻样 ~~ ♥


♥ 我们滴午餐还蛮丰富滴，结果。。。吃不完。。。还蛮浪费滴，没办法啦！大家都饱了 ~ ♥


♥ 下午走街时还买了1大堆滴东西 ~ 唉 ~ 钱就慢慢少，东西就越加越多。。。要学习怎样省1省钱了 ♥



♥ 晚上就和Wendy，A Kit，Endo在东区滴1间小cafe喝茶吃东西，吃到1半Jason打来说刚刚和Xxuan拍完照，1整天没吃东西，肚子现在很饿。。。所以就过来和我们1起‘掺台脚’~ 吃完后，Endo就载A Kit回家。。。我，Wendy，还有Jason和他哥哥1起去唱K。。。玩得好开心。。。可是我还是没忘了要想念我滴贝比噢。。。好爱他噢~ 麽麽 ~ ♥

♥ 隔天，上了1整天滴网，发现贝比骗了我。。。心情很糟！！不过我还是忍了下来~ 因为我不是1个冲动滴人。。。不久气消了，就和Wendy还有Forman佬1起去了Sushi King。。。哇唠耶~ 我是1个不喜欢吃Sushi滴傻婆来滴，就叫了1碗面来吃。。。Wendy和Forman就给了点点Sushi我试1试，1放进口了，感觉超怪滴。。。不过我还是勉强滴吞了下去。。。♥




♥小小滴Tips♥ 下次谁想跟我1起‘掺台脚’滴话，请不要带我去吃Sushi噢 ~ 谢谢 ♥

♥ 晚上就是我们滴Happy Hour噢。。。因为早上就要离开怡保了~所以就1班1起下去Barroom玩，那晚大家都穿了黑衣，因为是Full Black Party噢！！那晚真滴好多人，还蛮热滴噢~ 虽然那晚发生了1件不开心滴事，但是我还是很开心~因为我发现贝比还蛮保护和疼我滴，他还偷偷亲了我几下噢。。。嘻 ~ 发现自己越来越爱贝比了 ♥


♥ 散场后，大家各自回家去了~ 可怜滴我和Wendy没时间休息了，回到家冲冲忙忙滴冲凉拾我们滴东西赶着去山顶了~ 在车上睡了下就得赶着去上班了，我从来没有试过有那么累滴1天 ~ 还好1路都有贝比滴陪伴，好开心 ~ 麽麽 ♥

♥ 完 ♥

Craziest Day with my dearest and my lovely baby

Hmmm...Chinese New Year almost end d la, soooo i think is time for me to update my blog hees~~ Been to many places,done lots of stuff...But still i manage to enjoy my time with my dear ones...MUACKSS ♥

Jeffrey's CNY look, cute isn't he?? Luckily he's not human, if not i think he's gonna get more Ang Pau then i do..Hees~


My CNY stuff, my favorite colour is purple soooo most of my stuff are purple in colour...


My little Brother and Jeffrey ~~


Got it from my friend, my favorite CHOCOLATE ♥


Feb 17 ♥ Went to Kl, so damn traffic jam, 5 hours later i finally reached kl...So tiring, but it's worth it...Because i finally met my precious ones ♥♥ And had our supper together..Hees~

Feb 18 ♥ Went to Sunway with B and watched a movie called Wolfman...It wasn't tat good...Still, i had a great time...Love it ~~


Cool~~Yummy ♥♥♥♥


Hmmmm~~Nice ♥♥♥♥


My favorite indian looking shoe ~~ Wendy look !!!! I finally brought it d...muahahahahaha~~~


My fugly look without any make up on...Friends~ Do u guys still love me??? lol...hees~~


Feb 19 ♥ Woke up around 3 in the afternoon, melting..Cuz wheather is so damn hot, cool down bit then get myself prepared goin out with B to Times Square...Walk around, had our lunch at Kenny Roger, shooping and watched movie again..Hees~


Tangy Chicken, Is kinda spicy to me ...


Hot Chocolate ~~


My reflection from the lift..Hees~ Yeng mou..Lol...


Feb 20 ♥ Had my lunch with B, and then make my moves back to Ipoh...Miss B all the way...Had a great night with Wendy, a Kok, Jason, Xuan and Jien Wei...Wendy go nuts again, lol...Kinda funny and sweat~~ But i do still love her...Hees~ Suppose go for breakfast with Kok, but we canceled it d...Cuz, i got a huge headach... Sigh, Sorry Kok ~~

So these is all what had happened to me during this CNY, and i had enjoyed it alot ~~


♥♥♥ HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ♥♥♥